Friday, October 19, 2018

10 Year Wedding Anniversary

Yesterday Jesse and I celebrate our 10 year anniversary.  We've been together since 2001 (going on 18 years).  It's hard to believe that I've been with him over half my life.  We had a great wedding and I often ask Jesse if he wants to get married I can plan another party!  He says, NO, once is enough!

A recap of the last ten years includes lots of deaths, lots of tears, but also lots of joy and laughs.  I wouldn't want to ride this roller coaster of life with anyone else.  We basically grew up together and he knows everything about me. 

Jesse and I got engaged in June of 2007 and I lost my Grandma Berndt shortly after in August.  A year later and a few months before our wedding Jesse lost his Grandpa Chuck and on our way back from our honeymoon we got a call that he lost his other Grandpa Ray.  Fast forward to the following summer and Jesse's grandma passed away.  Our first year of marriage was tough..but we fought through it.  We bought our first house, a townhouse, located in Norwalk and lived there for three years until we bought a house in Indianola.

We knew we wanted kids but didn't want to rush into it.  We wanted to enjoy the first few years of marriage before we brought kids into the mix.  In the mean time we got a puppy, Roxy (wheaten terrier) and a few years later added Baloo (australian shepherd).  We lost Roxy shortly before we moved back to was heartbreaking.  We went on a few trips and spent a lot of time in Buckeye taking care of my Grandpa Berndt until October 2011, when we lost him as well.  I spent most of my weekends in Buckeye with my mom taking care of my grandpa and Jesse was very supportive.  He knew how close I was with my grandparents and he never discouraged from going and taking care of him. 

We moved back to Indianola in 2012, a few houses away from my parents (which I loved)!  We did some cosmetic updates and in the fall we announced that I was pregnant! We continued on with updating our house and getting it ready for our baby.  Grady was born in 2013 and it was amazing to have my parents so close!  Throughout the last 6 years we have completely updated our home.  We build a deck, refinished the basement, painted all the walls and trim, installed hardwood floors throughout the main level, painted the kitchen cabinets and counter tops.  All we have left is to replace the carpet upstairs and upgrade both bathrooms upstairs.  Lots of blood, sweat, and tears and lots of help from my parents and brothers!

We had a couple of pretty low key years but 2015 was probably one of the hardest.  I lost my mom suddenly; not expected.  It was heartbreaking; my heart literally hurt and still hurts for the loss of my mom.  Jesse helped me anyway he knew how; he worried so much about me because I wasn't sleeping and I wasn't taking care of myself.  My life was consumed with grief and I was in a black hole trying to fight my way out.  I finally went to the Dr. and after 6 long months I started to crawl my way out.  Jesse's support helped me through.  He held me when I cried and let me take my anger out on him; and that's exactly what I needed.

The next few years were good.  It was hard to explain to Grady that his Meemaw was gone but we did the best we could.  We took a trip to Disney World and Grady still talks about it.  We announced that I was pregnant with baby #2 in 2017.  We found out in June that we had lost Mason.  Jesse and I spent a few days at the hospital so I could give birth while my dad watched Grady.  It was a very hard time for both Jesse and I but I think we came out of that experience stronger than ever.  We cried and held our sweet baby boy together and we often think about who he would have been.  He was the spitting image of his big brother and it crushed both Jesse and I that Grady didn't get to experience that with Mason.  Grady still talks about Mason and how he is in heaven and we will see him again some day. 

After the devastating loss of Mason we started trying again a few months later. During this time Jesse's parents were going through a divorce.  It was hard on Jesse but we leaned on each other when the other needed it.  On Halloween 2017 I told Jesse I was pregnant again.  We were so excited and terrified at the same time.  Because they could never determine why Mason died it made my 3rd pregnancy super scary.  The did TONS of tests and I was monitored very closely to lower my stress level and just to make sure everything was going well.  The only issue I had with Easton's pregnancy was that I had gestational diabetes. I had Easton in July and things have been going pretty well so far.

Tonight will be the first time that I leave Easton with anyone other than Jesse or our babysitter, Diana.  My brother and sister-in-law will be watching the boys so Jesse and I can celebrate our anniversary together.  Happy Anniversary's to many more years together!

Friday, October 12, 2018

Easton Dale...3 Months Old

OH my..I can't believe Easton is 3 months old.  I feel like time is just flying by.  We are enjoying this little boy so much.  Grady is an amazing big brother to Easton, a role he was born to have.  He loves on his little brother, tells him stories, and gets him to smile and giggle.  I love seeing them together!

Easton had his 3 month photos earlier this week and I got a few previews (they are AMAZING)!.  During the last month Easton started to giggle and smiles ALL THE TIME!  He truly is a happy baby 99% of the time unless he is hungry.  If he is hungry get a bottle as fast as you can because he will scream until you put one in his mouth.  He is eating  5-6 oz every 3ish hours. He's quite the little eater!
photo credit to Kayla Pontier Photography

He recently learned to like laying on the floor. My favorite thing is when he is on the floor and I'm sitting next to him he will be kicking and moving his arms and every few minutes he always touches my arm or leg to make sure I'm still melts my heart!

I think he will be rolling over soon.  He likes to bring his legs up and kind of roll side to side but not completely over yet.  He HATES tummy time and will scream until you flip him back over.  He has always had super strong neck muscles and is doing great at keeping his head up.  He likes to follow you around the room and watch what you are doing.  He recognizes our voices and I absolutely adore him!
He is in 6 month clothing but can also wear 9 month; meaning that we hardly have any clothes that we will work winter because Grady was so small for so long.  That just means mommy gets to go shopping!  He sleeps through the night (except for the last two nights) and LOVES to snuggle.  If he is really upset you can wrap a blanket up around his face and he will calm down pretty quickly.  He is starting to reach for things and trying to figure out what his hands do.

He likes his bee-bee (pacifier) but can go without it.  If he doesn't have his bee-bee he puts his hand in his mouth.  He's drooling like crazy and goes through a couple of  bibs a day.  He still hates his car seat and will scream until you start moving the car.  So each time we go somewhere Grady will hurry and get buckled and yell, 'go mommy, before he starts screaming!!'.

He's a great baby and I can't remember what life was like without him!

Monday, September 17, 2018

Easton Dale...2 months old

Finally getting caught up!  Easton turned 2 months old a couple of weeks ago.  Time is flying!  I went back to work a few days before he turned 2 months old and he surprised us by sleeping from 10 pm - 5 am!  I have to get up at 5 am because I changed my hours at work from 6:30 am - 3:00 pm so I can pick Grady up from school. 

Easton is growing like a weed!  At his 2 month appointment he weighed 12 lbs 3 oz, the 47% (we thought he would weigh more) and he was 23.5 inches long which is in the 72%.  He is wearing 6 month clothing and taking 4 ounces every 3 hours.  He will take a 6 oz bottle before bed and sleep all night!

He has great head control and can hold his neck up really well.  When he is hungry feed him quickly and he gets super mad!  He will be smiling one minute then decides he is starving and screams and screams until you put a bottle in his mouth!  He smiles all the time and that is probably one of my favorite things! He discovered his tongue and his hands and constantly puts his hands in his mouth!  He still likes his beebee (pacifier) sometimes.  He doesn't take it at night but will suck on it in the car and when he naps or if he is super upset!  He loves to cuddle and loves when his mommy rocks him.  He coos and talks to you!  Nicknames for his so far include: potato salad (from my brothers), Dale, fuss bucket, bucket, or buckey, brother, and the baby.  With Grady we had/have so many nicknames for him, I'm surprised he actually knows his name! He has his fussy time between 5 - 7 pm every night.  Grady continues to be a great big brother and has adjusted very well! 

Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Easton Dale...1 Month

Easton's first month of life was an adjustment period for all of us; going from a family of three to four I feel we transitioned pretty well.  We were super busy with Grady having swim lessons, tball, my doctor appointments, working on my dad's house and Grady's 5th birthday.  The first week was crazy!
The week we brought Easton home he was eating 2 ounces every 3 hours; we ended up changing his formula to Similac Total Comfort because the regular Similac seemed to give him a tummy ache. We went to the Dr. the first week home and he weighed 7 lbs 10 ounces, length 20.5 inches, and his head measured 14 inches.   Shortly after we changed his formula he started eating 3 ounces every 3 to 3.5 hours.  His second appointment with the pediatrician was on July 25th and he weight 8 lbs 12 ounces and grew to 21.25 inches. The Dr. said he looked great and we didn't need to wake him every 3 hours anymore.  He started sleeping between 4-5 hours during the night (we were thrilled to get a little more sleep!).



The first month home was rough for me.  I went to the Dr. the end of the first week and got an infection in my c-section and part of my incision wasn't healing correctly.  I was super sore so I'm so thankful Jesse was home; I had weekly Dr. appointments for the next several weeks until I healed.  Grady did an awesome entertaining himself the first month of Easton's life.  It was a huge adjustment for him going from the only child to being a big brother but he has handled it very well.  I'm so proud of him!

During the first month we went to the county fair, balloon parade, Carla and Ashley came to visit, lots of Dr. appointments and lots of snuggles!  Going from 1 to 2 kids was much easier than 0 to 1.  I'm much more relaxed and just enjoying my time with him knowing that it won't last long!

The first month was quite a blur but I'm couldn't be happier!