I remember absolutely every detail from the time my dad called me on Saturday night the 30th to when the Dr. came out and told my dad and I that my mom didn't make it. It was just my dad and I there at the hospital when she died. We told Scooter, Dustin, and Shelby to go home and we would keep them updated. It all happened so fast that none of them made it...it was my dad and I waiting int he waiting room, praying that she would make it, but in my heart I knew she was gone when they wheeled her past us. It's a day I wish I could forget but I can't...sometimes I won't think about it for a really long time and one day I will get a flashback and it hurts like hell...I wish I could forget.
There are still days when I go to pick up the phone to call my mom and have to remind myself that I can't...she won't be on the other end to pick up. But I will NEVER erase her number from my phone. I often think about all that she has missed because SO much has happened the last two years. Scooter graduated high school, Dustin got married, Grady has had two birthdays, my parents wedding anniversary, the announcement of Jesse and I having a second child, the reveal party, and so much more.
I miss you mom, more than you'll ever know.